Picture post; Purchases, Red Hair & Tiger.

Is it just me of the makeup on the cover of Vogue Australia last month, amazinggggg. Unfortunatley that was the only photo I really loved from the photoshoot. I spent the last of my paycheck on all of the above:

- Vogue Australia/ magazine
- Yen/ magazine
- Frankie/ magazine
- Fault in our Stars/ novel
- Paper Towns/ novel
- Outside in/ novel
- Sports girl jumper/ clothes
- Sports girl boots/ shoes
- One teaspoon shorts/ clothes

I'm broke. Let us all prayyyyyy that I hear back from a job soon, otherwise I'm fucked.

Alright so.

When I go through things, emotionally that is. From boredom to a full on mental break down. (I'm usually an anxious mess) I often feel like I need a change to go with it, whether it be a new piercing, hair dye or an outfit that I wouldn't usually wear. I just need something different. I need to take a break from bieng me I guess and I knowww that these little changes don't really change anything at all but it's usually enough to give me that confidence boost that cheers me up and makes life temporarily a little easier.

This time, I coloured my hair. I've outgrown to 'DIY' phase of early teen hood and now I do these things al' professional. I went in with a photo, which I didn't end up showing the hair dresser (I guess I always end up getting persuaded into other things) and a 'do something, anything!' attitude which hair dressers usually respond well to.  I initially wanted something dark and auburny like Demi Lovatos current do... example:




As I was dead sick of my dirty blonde/brown/overgrown hair that everyone seems to have at the moment because balayage/ombre and dirty blonde is 'in' but let me tell you, it's fucking boring after a while especially when everyone has a version of... example:




I went to a cheapish hair dresser, the lady was lovely and she got all excited with me after we decided on a vibrant red shade, giggly and on that "I'm going to be a new woman" high, which some of you girls may be familiar with I walked out with this...



It's semi permanent. The colour was Indian Red and I'll try post a better DSLR photo in natural lighting sometime soon. It will last about 8 weeks and I'll try update yall on how the colour wears for any of you interested in semi permanent hair dye.

Its blinding I know but in real time, it's a darker mahogany but still a completely over the top shade. I like it but it doesn't reallyyyy suit me... I guess it's just a little to red. I personally don't use hair colour to accessorize. When you have to start matching clothes to you hair well... it's a little to much work. I can't wait to wash it and style it myself 'make it my own' I guess is an appropriate phase as I never leave the hair dressers 100 percent happy because it always feels over producted  and heavy andddd it gets greasy hours later. In my experience anyway.

I'll tell you how it wears but wa'la. It seemed to do the trick. This and some feel good movies, I'll be on the road to sanity in no time.

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Thoughts.

I might take some pictures tomorrow to post on le blog.
I spent the last 20 minutes of my life learning the opening verse for Macklemores  Can't Hold Us.
Why.
I need to go to sleep because I have to wake up at 9:30.
I want to die.
Or.
Alternatively just click my fingers and have the ability to instantaneously fall asleep.
Lots of love, may you all be having a better time of it then me.
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Dragged or lifted?

So it's nothing beauty related but I guess I felt like having a little bit of a rant about hateful people. The thing about hateful people is that well they are hateful, big surprise I know but I mean they hate alot, alot of things, alot of people, alot of life and it's so unhealthy. The real thing is that it doesn't really matter what they are hating, because they are going to hate regardless if it wasn't their day or their boyfriend or their family or the weather or their hair or that pretty girl walking past you or that womans hair or gays or muslims or anything like that, it would be something else. Hate is just in their nature... regardless of what they are hating on. So don't listen to them... because chances are if they are hating gays or you or their life, they are hating everything. So really it has nothing to do with gays or you or their life. It just has to do with them and their outlook on life.

These people will bring you down to there level till you find yourself hating things aswell because every other word out of their mouth is likely to be a complaint...  and it's gross. I say gross because I have a friend whom I love dearly but she is a very hateful person, probably because she was raised that way and she's great and beautiful but when she starts hating, she is unattractive and gross.  Its like a 180 from the funny confidant girl I know. She uses the term 'faggot' regularly and then I'll say something like "Oh are they gay?" and she'll say no but she hates gay people as well. When we were younger at school she would voice it and then people would disagree with her and yell at her and  for a long time I thought she had changed her ways, how could she not after hearing what people have to say on it? But really I guess she learnt to just not say it, to mask it because being so close with her every now and then she'll say things and I'm reminded of her homophobic comments back in grade 9. She doesn't believe in Global Warming. Which I whole heartedly disagree with, how can you not believe in global warming? It exists it's happening, the world is warming... how can you debate it? She then proceeded to explain exactly what global warming is and about how it isn't global warming but it's just happening. "But that's Global Warming...?" I would say and she would disagree and she would explain what is happening in the world and I would say "But that's climate change...?" and she would disagree and we went in a full circle till she just said 'No.' and proceeded till ignore me till I felt like leaving because who wants to keep company like that, let's discuss it. Let me learn about why you think that way, let me disagree. Let us both learn from our discussion and view points. I hate people who are so opinionated themselves they close up at the very idea of someone questioning them and the values they have built around them and covetted since in this case their close minded parents first educated it on them, "Now listen you! Global warming is fake! Invented! Gays should be killed and fucking migrants! Get rid of 'em muslims and fucking Arabian fucking faggots invading our fucking country taking our fucking jobs! Send them back! Send the fucking boats back!".... I can hear it now, the charming intellectual conversation in her living room that are so full of hate for other people it makes my heart ache. The fact people like this can exist in world where you no longer have the excuse of not knowing better. How dare you persucute someone for being who they are, from being where they are from and for feeling how they are feeling! Tell me dear, does your sex life with your boyfriend have anything to do with me? Our friendship? Or anyone around you? What was that? No, it doesn't? Correct. It has nothing to do with me, our friendship or anyone around you. So why does a gay persons partner or sex life have anything to do with you, your relationship with them or anyone around you? What was that? No, it doesn't? Correct. So why the fuck do you care!? Homophobia disgusts me, and it should disgust you because who you love has nothing to do with anyone else but you... so don't make it a problem for someone else.

I think about the statement "We are exactly who we are supposed to be." and it goes one of two ways, because on one side I think yes, I am exactly the way I am supposed to be but on the other hand I look at these people and I think "No! This can not be who you are supposed to be." you might think why do their homophobic values have to define them? But they do because it defines gays. It defines the law. It defines someones life, so it has to define them. Your values define you! What you say defines you! I can only hope that there is some big reason for why these people think the way they do, I'm not about to go all 'godly' on your ass but there just has to be a reason for why they are the way they are and why they should stay that way...

I pose to you this goal. When you open your mouth you can one of two ways, you can go negative and complain and be hateful and yess we are all like this sometimes and sometimes we just need to have a good bitch. But waking up in the morning have a think, am I going to be hateful today? Or am I going to be a happy, cheerful person that is nice to be around and lifts people up as opposed to dragging them down? Because which is nicer to be, dragged or lifted?

I'm going to try to let go of my hate for these people, and try to keep this particular person close to my heart and show them kindness and acceptance where it is lacking in their life, I might not be able to change their minds but I might be able to show them that hate just isn't worth the breath. I almost didn't have the breath to say all this but I felt like I had to, I had to really think about what I wanted to say and why so when I'm faced with a discussion about homophobia, I know what I'm going to say.

Good day to you all, and may the odds be ever in your favour.

Here is a quote, "When you wake up ask yourself. Am I going to believe all bad things fools say about me today? No."

When you feel bad, whatever that entails. Remember...

It's nothing a good movie won't solve.

My foundation collection.

My skin is my biggest problem really, I had pretty good skin from about 14-17 and while alot of the girls in my school were struggling with acne, I only ever had one of two spots at a time. Never the less my makeup addiction began early and I bought my first foundation at 14. Just some random Maybelline one that didn't really do much of anything or maybe it was max factor...? Anyways I started wearing it regularly at about 15 when I was getting my first spots, and they horrified me! I didn't need it, but no one in my house wears makeup and I was really navigating blind in the world of beauty looking at Youtube videos for guidance. Watching older girls who knew what they were doing talk about full coverage, and when I heard those words at 15 I guess I thought all my problems would be solved. I maintain, I didn't know what I was doing. I was like "full coverage= flawless skin= must have" doesn't reallyyyy work like that. So I was on Revlon Colour Stay and then MAC Studio Fix Fluid which I never really liked. Then my skin worsened and I started learning about makeup and everything was fine and dandy till about the end of last year when the acne phase hit me. I offically have acne. No it isn't super terrible compared to others but it's pretty bad and I have to wear foundation all the time now just when I was happy with how my skin was aswell... ah life... The point of this post is that I have become a bit of a liquid foundation connoisseur, it's my foundation of choice and next pay check I might investigate some powders as my powder foundation collection is well basically none. I've tried well over 30 liquid foundations short yet experimental life and I now have a pretty solid collection of liquids some I like and some I don't. Below is what I have currently and my short (or not so short as it turns out) opinions on each.




From left to right:
Revlon Colour Stay in Buff   (On the lighter side but good)
Bobbi Brown Skin Foundation SPF15 02 Sand   (Yellowy but good)
Laura Mercier Silk Creme Foundation Soft Ivory   (Too light)
Lancome Photogenic Lumessence
Dior Skin Forever 022   (Way tooooo dark)
Chanel Vita Lumiere Aqua B20   (Good)
Etude House Mineral BB Cream 02   (Good)
Chanel Perfection Lumiere BR12   (Pink, no...)
Benefit You Rebel Lite   (eh)
Mac Studio Sculpt NW20   (On the darker side but good)

Revlon Color Stay Buff; Colour match is pretty good for my skin but I found it a bit to heavy. I love coverage and thick foundation usually isnt an issue but this always dried really really quickly on my face so if you needed extra coverage, you'd end up feeling masky. The flash back in photos was outrageous though, it might just have been in the lighter shades which I always wore, but it would come out so white! I haven't found that with any of the other foundations I've tried. I've heard people say that it doesn't happen to them so who knows, give it a try. It's cheap a good back up to have. Not something I turn to every day though, its my inbetweener.

Bobbi Brown Skin Foundation SPF 15 Sand 2: I'll be honest I haven't worn much of it at all. It's quite yellow but neverrrr buy a pink foundation, ever... (rant continued below). Get a yellower one and use blush and powder to bring back colour. This foundation is very very very thin and liquidy. It isn't meant to have good coverage I believe it's meant to be low hence why I don't use it. My skin just isn't good enough. I also found this one was a bit oily. I have dry skin, but with this one it left kind of a thin veil over my face, that didn't cover much at all, so why wear product that doesn't do anything for my skin, seemed like waste so I no longer wear it really. I didn't love it. Maybe when my skin improves I'll go back to it. I would say this is for someone with good skin who just wants a little extra summin summin. It's a pretty inoffensive foundation. Oh and I used just your average foundation brush to apply it.

Laura Mercier Silk Creme Foundation Soft Ivory: Love, hate. With out a doubt. On my dry skin, it cakes and clings to dry patches like no tomorrow. Looks awful. But the coverage is amazing. It is a superrrrrr thick formula that doesn't apply easily as you really need to buff it in to the skin. Colour is on the lighter side for me maybe a little too light actually which makes it not a great choice for moi.  But like I said coverage, coverage, coverage! This does wonders in hiding your skin, and if you take the time to apply it nicely and blend it well and blah blah blah this can look really good. I save it for nights out where I want that extra bit of coverage and I blend it with Dior Forever a darker foundation or apply it beneath my Chanel Vita. Not good for dry skin.


Lancome Photogenic Lumessence: I think this one is in 010... I can't find the shade anywhere. No.. just no. I bought this way back when and I've touched it only a few times. Coverage is okay when you first apply it but it slides off anything you actually want to cover. This is a greasy tinted veil over the face. No matter how much powder I use and hour later nothingggg on my face. It was horrible really... if you have good skin yes sir by all means. It did nothing for me.... literally nothing. I might as well just have taken some oil and put it on my face anddd I have dry skin! It's a greasy formula.

Dior Skin Forever 022: Meh, I can't really comment I was matched wayyyyyy too dark. I must have got it like two years ago now and I've never worn it alone. Way way way way way way way too dark. I don't know how the sales lady fucked it up so bad on my literally white skin. Formula seems nice enough, it's quite perfumed though so maybe not for sensitive skin. I used it to mix with lighter foundation. You would think I was Brazilian with the colour I have.

Chanel Vita Lumiere Aqua B20: I love this. It isn't a full coverage foundation, but it covers alot. I've worn this basically every day since it came out. I wear B20 and it's slightly darker then my skin but I blend it and it seems fine enough. Doesn't cling to dryness, doesnt make my skin oily. Heres the thing though, it isn't buildable I don't care what they say on counters but if I build this it looks crap and patchy and dark. Once its on my face and dry thats it. I'm on my second bottle and while this is a favorite for everyday. I'm looking for something with just that extra bit of coverage. It's quite natural looking aswell. Great, great formula. I highlyyy recommend this but make sure you take the time to figure out how to wear it best for you. I know a few different people who apply it differently for them. I use a 187 stippling brush to stipple then blend in circular motions only applying a thin layer all over the face. Perfecto.

Etude House BB Cream 02: I got it in Thailand,  I don't think they sell it anywhere else. It's pretty good but kind of clings to the fine hairs on your face... I don't have a hairy face... but it kind of like I don't know accentuates them in a strange way. But it's nice and inoffensive. I don't wear it too often because its lightening. But Ill put it in spots that I want coverage which it does well then cover my face in powder for an Al Natural 'going to the beach' sort of day.

Chanel Perfection Lumiere 12 Beige Rose: Formula seems nice enough, it's quite thick but I have this in Beige Rose and the roseeee dear god ITS PINK! The foundation is actually a light pastel pink, and I put it on and I look in the mirror and my face all over, everywhere is pink. It wayyyyyy tooooooo pink. You use foundation to hide redness... why did they create a shade thats entirely pink I'm not sure. I can't imaging it looking good on anyone even if you have pinker skin! Use a yellow or neutral toned foundation to counteract your redness and thennnnnn use blush! If I use blush with this I would look like a clown, I think I do with it on anyway.

You Rebel Lite: I use this under their Flawless something powder foundation which I really like for extra coverage but by itself its pretty awful. I use it as a primer I guess for powder. Its greasy as fuck... just don't bother really.

Mac Studio Sculpt NW20: I've only worn it once so I'll give you more details as I discover them. I just bought it colour is on the darker side, I think Ill need an NW15 or NC15 to mix with it. It blends okay but I found after a few hours it was patchy and kind of gross on my skin. I'll do a full review on it once I've had the chance to wear it a bit more.

That's that. If I have to say another word on liquid foundation I think I'll scream. I hope this helped someone somewhere..

'Gifts' and rambling.

While I was wandering around the beauty level of David Jones waiting for a friend (dangerous, dangerous thing to do), I 'stumbled' across (by that I mean walked right towards) the Lancome counter. I've never had much luck with Lancome myself but my mum likes one of their concealers which I mistakenly recommended to her thinking it was YSL Touche Eclat which I've heard numerous good things about. Knowing she had just ran out I picked another one up for her and then it hit me (figuratively), the big sign "Gift with purchase over $70" I didn't even really look at the gift but the sales lady said it was a good one and what do you know I was only $20 off. I end up walking away with two concealers for my mum at $100 and a gift for me valued at "$499" or something equally as ridiculous. Let me tell you ladies, the size of those samples... a few dollars each max. I felt like a winner until I got home and looked at the 'gift'. I thought I would do a blog post on it as after some investigating I found out all of the products are in their permanent line and some of you out there might be interested in purchasing them in the future. That my dears was the story of how I wasted money. Never againnnnn (she vows until the next time she's waiting for a friend). Below is the schtuff I ended up with.



 Products:
Gelateis Douceur (Cleanser); Gentle softening cleansing fluid, face and eyes.
Hydra Zen Neocalm (Syrum); Detoxifying, moisturising, multi-relief, anti-stress, gel essence.
Hydra Zen Neocalm (Lotion); Multi-relief, anti-stress, moisturising cream.
Treson; Perfume.
Color Design (Lipstick); Vintage Rose, Sheen.
Color Design (Eye shadows); Colours listed below.
Hypnose (Mascara); Doll Eyes, in 'So Black!'



 Colours from right to left, top to bottom:
Style Selection (Metallic), Optic (Sheen)
Garment (Intense), The New Black (Metallic), The New Blue (Metallic)
Drama (Shimmer), Camisole (Shimmer)



(Swatches are in reverse order)
Oh and just somethings to note, Optic is barely visible on my skin, the middle three colours suck with depositing colour and Camisol was my favorite.





The Lipstick is a nice colour, comes across darker and less corally on my lips almost with sort of dark plummy tones. It's a 'my lips but more vibrant' sort of colour.


May you all never fall victim to the 'gift' swindle at cosmetic counters.

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